Rainbow Smile

In my dreams,
I couldn't of conjured,
An image of loveliness,
This reality, that is you,
You are my dream,
My only dream,
The only one yet to come true,
The happiness of just your smile,
Brings light,
To the darkness inside me,
These clouds in my heart,
That never part,
You could set adrift,
And blow them away,
So they would not shroud,
My every day,
With just your smile,
You are my Sun,
Bringing my seed to grow,
Towards your light,
So ever bright,
That is the you,
I've come to know,
Even rain can't remain,
When you smile at me,
For rainbows come,when rainfall ceases,
And all the clouds are blown away.

© August 31, 1992 Rod Arbogast



Between You and I

I can send a letter,
That tells you of my love,
But does it touch you,
Like my hands do?

Does it mean as much,
As when I'm with you,
Telling you with my voice,
Of all my love for you?

It's not my eyes intensity,
Or the heat of my breath against your neck,
But my innermost thoughts,
Of my yearning to be with all you are to me,

It's my thoughts remembrance,
My mind's eye's looking at what was,
is and can be,
Between you and I

© August 1, 1992 Rod Arbogast



I Want Only You

Do you think you could love me?
Until the day you die?
Until you think you can't feel anymore love?
Until the light fades from my eye's?

Do you think that you could need me?
More than you do now,
More than you have needed anyone,
Won't you tell me how?

Do you think that you could want me?
Like you want not anything else,
Like you've never known a desire,
Like nothing else you've felt inside yourself,

I know that I could love you,
More than anything that I have ever known,
I know forever that this love I'll hold dear,
And feel deeply within my bones,

I know I'll always hunt you,
Like a predator after your scent,
You've touched me as no one ever has done before,
Now I am bent and won't relent,

Until my memories haunt you,
And let you feel how much I cared,
And your tears wash away your self doubt,
About if I am still there,

I know only that I want you near,
As long as you can feel love for me,
I'll try and be everything you've ever needed,
If you listen you may understand and see,

Our love is so very special to me,
I understand all the possibilities,
And all the rain of life's realities,
And still, I want only you with me.

© September 9, 1992 Rod Arbogast



Longing

My love for you grows everyday,
Every second that I'm away,
I almost can't stand,
This pain I feel without your hand,
In a shell, my insides ripped out,
By the longing and being without,
It is too much to stand, your love, here by me,
Your hand here to guide me,
Your eyes staring beck into mine,
I cant stand the turmoil inside,
Eating away my tender pride,
I can't hold back the tears……..I cry,
I love you, this I surely know,
Never before have I ever known,
Someone who could take away all my fears inside,
I only see what can be between you and me,
I only know you make me happy,
And I need you, I need you so bad,
I feel afraid of losing you,
going insane, what can I do?
When I've made us both so very sad,
I didn't mean to fall so deeply in love with you,
I can't change the way I feel,
I just know one thing, if you have faith,
I will bring, Your dreams to you with my hands,
How does it get to be so real, all this love, that I feel?
I won't let it slip through my fingers like sand,
Don't ever give up on me, I love you so much, cant you see,
All I'll ever want is your hand,
Love,love me truly, and all I have to give, I will, to you,
Don't be afraid of what you don't know, move onward, that's how we'll grow,
All life throws at you, distances you have to go to to be satisfied in the end,
Don't ever give up even if you hurt,I would never, ever desert someone like you,
My only friend,
Until the end,
I'll love you,
Until the end,
I'll go through,
Whatever it takes to get you,
Whatever life can hurl at me,
Just as long as I have you by me,
I can be satisfied and fight for what I believe,
I believe in me and you,
I also feel what you're going through,
And I know my heart doesn't deceive,
Tell me now, if you can't handle all this love that I hand you,
I've got to know it's killing me,
If you don't just say so, if you do I want to know,
If my love isn't allowing you to be free,
I would die, inside, run to the hills, forever hide,
My self from what I couldn't bear to face,
So you see, I love you everyday,
I think of you until the tears scar my face.

I love you.

© September 2, 1992 Rod Arbogast



No Other

Never has there been another,
That could fill my hearts desire.
No other could bring me so much love,
Or cool my eternal fire.

No other has ever filled my mind,
Completely as you have,
Smiles, I knew not before now,
Nor before you did I laugh.

No beauty could I behold,
My heart knew nothing but sorrow,
You brought to me all of life,
A longing for tomorrow.

No others ever touched me,
Or soothed the inner beast,
The one that resides behind my eyes,
Its snarls you have ceased.

And, yet it waits to feast again,
For you its hunger is undying,
Increasing with every waking hour,
And when I'm sleeping it's still thriving.

Only you could satisfy this need,
No other could I touch like this,
With such passionate ferocity,
That gently stirs when we kiss.

In your arms I found Heaven,
In your eyes my paradise I have found,
Making love to you is eternal bliss,
Holding you my souls' unbound,

Though you're far away from me,
Your beauty etched within my mind,
It will be for eternity,
For another like you I shall never find.

© January 11, 1990 Rodney Arbogast



Waiting

Miles away,
You're there,
Precious,
Beautiful,
Sensitive,
Alluring,
Seductive,
Inviting,
Intriguing,
Serene,
Intense,
Alive,
Loving,
Honest,
Waiting,
For me.

© January 11, 1990 Rod Arbogast



Miles Away

Miles away,
You're there,
Living in your world,
How can I bear,
This feeling,
I can only call loneliness,
See it in my eyes,
In my voice no less,
Yet my dreams are full,
Of your face and smile,
Leading me by the hand,
To trudge that extra mile,
To scale that snowy mountain,
To blaze that bitter trail,
To swim the wide ocean,
To climb out of hell,
And you're still miles away,
In another land,
Waiting for my presence,
Waiting for my open hand.

© November 18, 1989 Rod Arbogast



End of Misery

Every time I look at you,
It makes my heart sing,
And every time we touch,
Bells in my heart ring,

My lips touch yours,
Love like hot molten pours,
Out to you, through me,
Leave behind your misery,

Leave behind your worries, your fears,
All of your days in tears,
And come to clearly see,
There'll be no misery with me.

© January 14, 1990 Rod Arbogast



Questions

When the time comes for me to die,
Will you be there?
When I'm old and gray,
Will you still care?

When my hands are wrinkled,
Will your hand be in mine?
Will our love grow strong with each passing second?
Will it survive the test of time?

Is this bond unbreakable?
Can this dream be tarnished?
Is this what you've longed for?
For is this what you've wished?

Would you take my name?
And keep it always?
And hold it dear to your heart,
For the rest of all your days?

Will you be there when I fall?
To pick me up and kiss my brow?
Will your love be as strong for me?
In years as it is now?

Will the fire behind your passion dwindle?
How long will it exist?
And when I'm far away from you,
Will I be sadly missed?

With each dawn will our love seem new?
Will each nightfall find you content?
Can I hold you when you're sleeping?
Do you feel this love is heaven sent?

Questions weighing in my mind,
If asked would you answer truly?
With one question above all others,
Would you marry me?

© January 13, 1990 Rod Arbogast



Fragrant Envelops

My letters couldn't convey,
What my heart feels inside,
The tears that smear the written words,
Show you how I've tried,

How I've tried to explain the pain,
And frustration at the distance,
That's separated us so long,
I haven't been the same since,

Since I held you close to me,
Since I gave my love to you,
Since you kissed me deeply,
Since my dreams all came true,

My letters couldn't convey,
This feeling of imprisonment,
I feel in this small town,
This dread just doesn't relent,

Your letters bring me hope,
When there is none in sight for me,
Their fragrance lingers in my mind,
Their words touch me tenderly.

© January 23, 1999 Rod Arbogast



Before I Had You

Before I had you,
I had nothing,
Before I had you,
Life was cold,
Before I had you,
Life was empty,
Before I had you,
My heart was stone,
Before I had you,
Love was a word,
Before I had you,
I had no hope,
Before I had you,
Days were unending,
Before I had you,
Days were gray,
Before I had you,
Life was a curse,
Before I had you,
I saw no rainbows,
Before I had you,
I had no smile,
Before I had you,
I lived a nightmare,
Before I had you,
I knew no peace,
Before I had you,
I didn't dream,
Before I had you,
My eyes didn't blaze,
Before I had you,
I rode a merry-go-round,
Before I had you,
I had only tears,
Before I had you,
I was deserted,
Before I had you,
Life was desolate,
Before I had you,
I was empty,
Before I had you,
The hours were dark,
Before I had you,
My blood was cold,
Before I had you,
I wasn't satisfied,
Before I had you,
I was filled with dread,
Before I had you,
Despair shrouded my soul,
Before I had you,
I feared,
Before I had you,
I felt ancient,
Before I had you,
Everyday was the same,
Before I had you,
I was earthbound,
Before I had you,
The mirror held no reflection,
Before I had you,
I never knew what pure meant,
Before I had you,
I had no will,
Before I had you,
I walked the beach alone,
Before I had you,
I was incomplete.

© January 13, 1990 Rod Arbogast



Lady of My Dreams

Did you see my eyes when?
We saw each other again,
Did you feel the spark at our touch?
When the winds in my heart began to gust,

When I spoke your name,
Did it ignite a flame?
I'm entranced by you,
It's about time you knew,

Lady of my dreams,
Silence my screams,
Lay your head on my chest,
Listen carefully as I confess,

All of my love, All of my love,
Lady of my dreams,
How must this seem?
To you, Lady of my dreams.

What is it you see,
When you look at me,
Waterfalls rolling down my cheek,
Does my voice shake when I speak,

You can't hear my screams,
When you peer into my dreams,

It must be just a nightmare,
When I reach out and you're not there.
Lady of my dreams,
Silence my screams,
When I sleep your always there,

Lady of my dreams.

© January 11, 1990 Rod Arbogast



A Cure

I give to you all my heart,
To do with as you wish,
To be near and hold your hand,
And all you'll have is this,

A love so pure and real,
As to be deep and secure,
And your lips I kiss today,
Are to me like a cure,

For my tired heart,
You can see this in my eyes,
You can feel it in my touch,
And do you realize,

Holding you ever so near,
Is all I wish to do,
When you look at me that way,
I know it has always been you.

© January 15, 1990 Rod Arbogast



Rapture

You look so lovely,
So sweet and sexy,
You look so charming,
When you're next to me,

And from afar,
You look so sincere,
And I beckon to you,
And pull you near,

Our eyes meet,
Our lips touch,
An intense heat,
Burns in my reach,

Your flames whip,
And descend,
To meet my fuel,
An explosion,

And your eyes melt,
And your lips wan,
And all around us,
Is made in vain,

As I hold you near,
And confess my love,
I kiss your ear,
Do you feel my lust?

Could it be true?
Could it be fate?
Me and only you,
Not a moment too late.

© January 14, 1990 Rod Arbogast



I've Found Someone

I've searched my whole life,
For someone just like you,
I'm so glad my search is over,
So glad this quest is through,

I've found someone, with who I can share my deepest emotions,
Someone who can feel that I am sincere,
Someone who appreciates every gesture of love,
Someone who understands smiles as well as tears,

Someone who's honest and compassionate,
Who's tenderness shows with every move she makes.

© January 23, 1990 Rod Arbogast



Ethereal Enchantress

With just one kiss,
My heart was stolen from me,
With just one look,
You fell into my dreams,

With just one word,
My soul was shook to its core,
With just one touch,
You left me craving more,

What can I do now?
Now that I have been possessed,
By your eyes, your love,
By your heated caress,

This spell you weave,
In the night by candlelight,
With your sweat, with your scent,
With your erotic appetite,

Leaves me possessed.

With just one tear,
You stoked my flames,
With just one moan,
You called my name,

With just your two arms,
I found my sanctuary,
With just your two lips,
I found ecstasy,

What can I do now?
Now that I've been possessed,
By your body, by your magic,
By only you, my Ethereal Enchantress,

This spell you weave,
With your lips to mine, by candlelight,
With your tongue, with your fingertips,
You search my soul with your seer's insight,

Leaving me possessed.

With each moment that passes by,
With each dream you conjure for me,
You possess my soul for your own,
Until you have eternally,

Leaving me possessed.
Under your spell,
Ethereal Enchantress,
Ethereal Enchantress,

Weave your spell,Over me.

© January 18, 1990 Rod Arbogast



Two Beach Bums

Step into my dreams love,
Where we're always hand in hand,
Sharing each day by the sea,
Walking on the beach,toes in the sand,

Lying in the sun listening to the surf,
Waves crashing and receding again,
The sun glinting off each rolling wave,
The palms blowing in the tropical wind,

Just two beach bums lying in the sand,
Just two beach bums in a strange and wondrous land,
Just two soul-mates on the beach making love,
At night, a bonfire, us laying under the stars above,

Tanning bodies growing brown and beautiful,
The cool tropical breeze blowing through our hair,
Eating fruit and fish living off the land,
In my dreams I can smell the salty air,

Exploring the beach and rocks all around the island,
Watching the setting sun and its rise at dawn,
My arms around you sitting by the fire,
Playing my guitar writing you love songs,

Just two beach bums lying in the sand,
Just two beach bums in a strange and wondrous land,
Just two soul-mates on the beach making love,
At night, a bonfire, us laying under the stars above,

Step into my dreams love,
Where we're always hand in hand,
Sharing each day by the sea,
Walking on the beach toes in the sand.

© January 18, 1990 Rod Arbogast



Harmonious

My friend first,
My friend second,
Our love together,
I feel is blessed,

My love today,
My lover yesterday,
Us together tomorrow,
Come what may,

We change together,
We love one another,
We can together journey,
Side by side, we'll not smother,

Hold my hand, yours in mine,
As I have felt it there,
Hearts ablaze with fire,
Hearts ablaze with care,

Let our hearts sing in tune,
Blend in harmony, yet parallel,
Like notes played in unison,
Between them all the notes of the scale.

© January 19, 1996 Rod Arbogast



Desperation

Everyday seems the same,
Since I've gone away,
To this land so cold and gray,
This land I know by only one name,

I feel so lost when I am here,
So dark and angry in my despair,
I sit all day bleak and stare,
Dreaming of having you near,

Another day, another grimace of pain,
No smile leaves my face,
No warmth can I embrace,
While outside there is always rain,

Rain that dampens my hopes,
Flooding into the valleys of my soul,
Mudslides that take their toll,
Cascading debris down these slopes,

I am buried alive gasping for air,
I can't even scream or cry out,
I can't stand, can't even shout,
Tell me how can I bear?

The suffocation of separation,
All consuming this wave that has swept me out to sea,
The bitterness of this inhumane cruelty,
Save me from this desperation.

© February 25, 1990 Rod Arbogast




I'd Still Love You

I look at you and see,
My life, my hope, my dreams,
I think of you and feel,
I want you to always be with me,

I love you, I need you,
I want to always keep you,
With me, safe from all your troubles,
With me, safe from all life's harm,

Others will try to sway you,
From the path I choose with you
But my love will always hold them at bay,
I just trust that you will do this too,

You could hurt me,
But I'd still love you,
You could hate me,
But I'd still love you,

No one could change my mind ever,
No one could sway my heart,
I'll feel this way till I fade away,
Or you choose to drift apart,Let me keep you close to me, forever.

© August 29, 1996 Rod Arbogast



Despairing The Distance

  How long will I search and never find?
A way to live my life I like,
Where will I be in 20 years?
How will I feel tomorrow?

How long 'til I feel I love the world?
How long before I die?
How much do I see the real world?
How long will it take 'til I open my eyes? 

I've found someone who makes me want to give,
I've found an angel who makes me want to relive,
All those nights we've shared together, good or bad,
The memories make me feel so good, laughing, as I am sad,

Sad, because you're there, I'm here and it will be awhile,
Before I can see your eyes shining and your beautiful smile,
I need you by me with your hand in mine,
To calm my turbulent soul, I need your lips on mine entwined, 

I've ended my search, for everything,  I've searched in vain,
To find it now in your love, and just pray it will remain,
My quest for love and understanding has come to an end finding you,
Everything a woman could be to me and everything she could ever do, 

I know we could have true love, my only love 'til I fade away,
I know my love I can't stop this feeling, it's steadily growing  everyday,
I've woken from a strange slumber, a strange dementia I was under,
Upon awakening I found an angel who made me ache with wonder, 

I've now found a friend and lover whom I want to share my life with,
Who make me happy just to live again, who, with, I know I can find eternal bliss,
I can't begin to explain the way I feel, but I will keep trying every way I can,
I grow and know more everyday about what I need to be a man, 

I need you, To be complete,
I want you to fulfill my desires,
I'll have you, If my way is to be,
Then we'll quench our passionate fires.

© September 9, 1992 Rod Arbogast



I Wonder

When you're so far away,
I wonder what you're doing.
I wonder what you're thinking,
And how you feel, 
I wonder how life's treating you
,I wonder what's on your mind,
I wonder if you're well in being,
And also in spirit,
I drift off in thought,
And how you move my heart,
To feel all these emotions,
That I know are genuine, 
I drink of the happiness,
Of memories of us there,
I dream of your face and eyes,
And think of you constantly,
I'm scared of feeling so much,
For one I've dreamed I'd never meet,
Your voice on the phone soothes me,
Yet feeds this fire inside,
Your voice so sweet and sexy,
Yet, so sad and distant,
And I know you miss me too,
I hear it in your tone,
I sense the line you draw,
To hold back these emotions,
I know you feel inside,
Yet, do not release for fear of,
Being consumed by their intensity,
Do you cry for my hand,
Do you cry for my lips and eyes,
My heart beating against your breast,
As we lay in the aftermath,
Of our lovemaking,
I cry for all you are to me,
I cry for all the things,
I've seen so far,
And the things I know can be,
With us,I cry for life to be kind for us,
In our journey towards each others hearts,
I know I am in your mind now,
I cry out in my wanting,
To be there eternally,
I scream my desire to stay in your heart until the end of time,
My love……..

© August 31, 1992 Rod Arbogast




Winter Trip

The miles roll on,
White mountains go by,
Darkness surrounds my flight,
I'm kinda high,  

400 miles to go,
Oh…it seems so far,
The hours drag by,
I'm wondering where you are,  

Your face stays in my mind,
Every minute I'm away from you,
Baby you could break my will,
Baby, if you only knew,  

So deep are your eyes,
There warmth flowing over me,
I miss the taste of your flesh
And the warmth of your love next to me.

© January 12, 1990 Rod Arbogast



Departing Embrace

I took the last bus out of town again,
Leaving you so far behind,
I couldn't take the morning bus,
There were tears in your eyes, 

I waved good-bye and kissed your face,
You just held on to my neck,
The best moments of my life,
One's I'll never forget,

You look better every time I see you,
I've just got to get back you…oh,
I'll see you again when I'm coming back,
I can't help it, I have to go,

Don't forget me while I'm away,
I'll write you when I'm gone,
I have so much to say,
When I'm there alone,

You've got me, I need you,
You say don't leave this time,
I don't want to, I can't see the sense,
I'm leaving you behind.

© January 12, 1990 Rod Arbogast



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